The Varsouvienne
Nothing behind the yellowed  ShopRite where the old lettuces 
bleed their green through  cardboard boxes or under the football field’s
scaffolded hierarchies of broken  curfews in Carthage, Indiana,
nothing there where the Applebee’s  and its chicken fingers
  count as cultural capital would  have led me to expect that when
  dancing the varsouvienne, the  instructor
  placing my hand on your  crinolined, black waist less than six
inches from your left nipple,  the civilization of myself
  would end, collapsed into a  fiery Crock-Pot of steaming onions
  and fish sauce, burning, waiting  for you, me weeping
  both over the burning, the  onions, and you,
a kind of bouillabaisse of the  usurped, the conquered,
  and all lost histories: “Good  God in Heaven!” the old Polish 
  mazurka goes, or something like  that. 
  Who knew how the scent of  crinoline on one’s fingers could shoot 
one out of Indiana and into the  Phoenician sea
  where dwell the piratical fish,  deep green seaweed harboring 
  impossible bubbles like takeout  containers of honey mustard sauce? 
  “You disgust me,” you said,  quoting Williams,
and I remembered A Streetcar  Named Desire was not 
  what I would ride on my way to  meet you, maybe a scratched 
  and wheezy motorbike of  desire. I am my worst touchstones, I realize.
  The varsouvienne is, by itself, not a reason to die.  ![]()